"Where'd you go? I miss you so, Seem like its been forever that you've been gone..."

Accepting that you're gone is by far the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I'm always thinking of you Hannah, wondering if there's a slight chance you're still coming back, wondering if this surreal experience and horrible nightmare will ever come to an end.. I miss you so much at times it's unbearable... But it only hurts so much because Hannah, you were such an amazing person and wonderful, loving friend to me. We had an incredibly strong bond and unique friendship and for that, I count myself extremely lucky and blessed to have known you for as long as I did. You've been an enormous part of my life and there is no way you will ever be forgotten. You will always be my best friend. You'll always be in my thoughts, in my dreams and forever in my heart.

Rest in Peace Hannah,
I love you.
You were such an amazing person Hannah. So full of life and energy. I loved every moment that we spent together. You were like the sister I never had. I used to always tell people bout my best friend Hannah, from HK - I think people thought I made you up. I really looked up to you. I'm so sorry we lost contact, I wish I could turn back time -but I'm so thankful for the fun times that we had together - all our shows, Pocahontas in Daytona, bunk beds at your place, Ocean Park, the American Girls - I used to love those dolls - but my favourite doll of all time was named after you. I miss the good times Han, but most of all I miss you.

Love and prayers...
For my beautiful Hannah

You are gone, and I miss you. I missed seeing you born by just one hour, and when I did arrive at the hospital I met my first grandchild. There you were a small little buddle of love and life and just like a moment later you were gone. I loved the times we spent together. Whatever we were doing was very special. I miss you. You brought sunshine and love into my heart and I feel like a part of me is now gone. I just need one more hug from you. I miss you.

I love you my sweet Hannah.
Hannah, love, the day you accepted me into your life, you turned my world over on its head. Now you've done it again, and I don't know what to do.

When I lost you, I lost so much more than a friend. I lost someone who I knew to the core, and who knew me inside out. I lost a companion; I lost someone I could do everything - and nothing - with. I lost someone who I could be myself with, something very rare nowadays. I lost someone with whom I could communicate without words, where everything was always just understood. I lost a family member. I lost your mind, smile, hug and kiss.

But what I gained is so much more. Because of you I have faith, I have hope, I can believe. Because of you I've learned to love with my whole. Because of you I am no longer afraid.

You will always hold a special place in my heart. I will never forget what you and your beautiful family gave me. I love you.
I will miss you Hannah. I remember that you always loved me and when ever I was sad, you helped me feel better. You were my oldest cousin and I love you. When we were in Atlantis and I was afraid to go down the slide, you helped me. The one thing that I want you to know is that I'm always your cousin and I will always love you. You were there for everything I saw in Atlantis. You made me feel special. I want you to know that you are special and there will always be a place for you in my heart. There was no one else like you. I love you so much Hannah. You are a good person that I will always remember. I will see you in my dreams.
I love you Hannah, I will miss you forever. I miss you Hannah. I remember when you stayed with me and we always had fun. I had fun with you every time we were together.
Hannah, Darling, I miss you so much. You are such an amazing person and you've touched everyone's life in so many different ways. Everyone who met you instantly fell in love with you. I still can't believe you're gone baby. You are the most beautiful person in my life and I'm so honored to have loved you and have your love. I'll never forget you Hann, there's not a second that goes by where I'm not thinking about you and missing you. I miss your hugs, your voice, your smile and your everything. I love you so much. always and forever. I love you. Rest in peace, I know you're in a better place now. Till we meet again baby girl. I love you.

You were one of the first few people I met when I transferred into CIS in the middle of year 12. You were so friendly, happy and funny and just one of those people who were so easy to talk to. You made it so much easier for me to feel comfortable in CIS. I remember so many little things, the way we used to chat outside class before English class started, laughing and complaining about English class and all our assignments, (attempting to) help you with your art project, so many little happy random moments. I miss you and I love you Hannah. You will always be in my heart.
For my dearest friend,

I miss you my gorgeous Hannah. Funny, silly, girl. So many sweet memories. I won't ever let you fade.
I love you my dearest friend. You will always hold a place in my heart. So kind and loving. Always welcomes with open arms. Loving, caring hugs. My big hearted friend, so precious you are.

I miss you so much,
love always,
You meant the world to me, you're my everything. You taught me so much, we were together through our formative years, changing from teenagers to young adults, you made me the person I am today, and for that I will be forever grateful. You will always be a part of me, and your values will always be mine. You are the most amazing person to me and I will always appreciate to have spent all our time together, I just wish we had more time together in this world. I would do anything just to be with you again. I will never forget so many first time experiences we shared together, I treasure our memories as it is keeps your spirit alive within me. Even though you are gone, you still amaze me with your capability to bring out the best in people and those that you have left behind, have now been brought closer together. Hannah, I love you with all my heart, you will always be my penguin forever.
Hann, I'll never forget our last day together this past January. It was my last day in Hong Kong and you insisted we go on a major shopping spree in Mong kok because it was my last chance to buy anything cheap. We had loads of fun, even buying matching cheongsam dresses to "get in touch with our Asian sides." As we talked about adjusting to college, I realized that I couldn't relate to any of my new friends like I could you. I cried when I had to leave you guys, and felt ridiculous at the time, but now I'm thankful because I think it showed you how much I cared.

It is pretty amazing our friendship has stayed fully intact throughout the ten years after we walked home together on my first day at CIS. Hannah was one of those friends you didn't let go - she was such a pleasure to be around and you could tell she highly valued each of her friends because she treated everyone such compassion. For me, it always felt like we were figuring life out together as we went along, and I assumed it would always be that way.

All the time we spent together has no doubt changed me for the better. As neighbors, we went for runs and hit the pool together in our endless attempts to get fit. As classmates, we sat through class next to each other and constantly compared how we were studying for finals. As friends, we forced our eyes open for our late night movie marathons, turned to each other for advice, and, of course, stole each other's clothes and modeled for coca cola. We had our first job together at age 12, had serious crushes on Josh Hartnett by age 14, got over the cooties phase to acquire boyfriends at age 16, and unraveled American college dilemmas via phone at age 18.

Hann, you left us way too soon. It still seems so surreal to me that I can't pick up the phone and call you anymore, that going home won't also mean spending days on end with you. You have deeply affected my life, like you have so many others, and I will always love you and will strive to keep your spirit alive.
Dearest Hannah,

My message to you has been long delayed. My thoughts are like pieces of my broken heart - hard to put together. My life has turned upside down without you, Hannah. Nothing is the same without you here. Hannah I miss you so much. You were my escape fom the harshness of life. You filled me with memories of a comforting past and prospects of a wonderful future. You always helped to heal my heart Hannah; this is the one time that you have managed to shatter it. Hannah, my best friend, my sister, you were so much a part of my life that I will never let you go. You were taken from us, our angel on Earth, into the Heavens where I know you are watching over us all. Hannah, our guardian angel, thankyou for being such a wonderful part of my life. You will be in our hearts and minds forever. I will never stop loving you.

All my love, Sianica

You were in my dream today. You have been there many times but today was even more poignant than all the other times. I wish I could tell you that there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you and I have wanted to write this for you for so long. There really isn't a good excuse but I am still having a hard time thinking that we will never physically be together. I believed that we were always going to have each other, grow old together despite the distance between us. We used to talk about plans for the future, how we were going to be vets and own a ton of horses or just be old senile women secretly watching Baywatch Hawaii or the Bold and the Beautiful. We promised that we would always be there for one another till the very end. Remember when you made me copy out 'Hannah Schawelson + Beatrice Shen = Best Friends Forever' over and over again on the Pocahontas stationary? How we would make up elaborate dance shows in a night, play with our American dolls for hours at end, dressing up and having photo shoots without any shame, our silly musical 'hollywood', our special word 'shwing' that would fix all our fights? I cannot imagine growing up without you, since day one of year 3 we have been inseparable, you have been in every momentous occasion of my childhood. We've gone through rough times but we always came together in the end. You are my comfort Hann, I could sit in silence with you for forever and feel so secure. We once talked about taking a bullet for people you know; you brought it up and with confidence told me that you would take a bullet for me in a second. The conversation was short, but it still resonates with me because I knew too that I would do the same for you. You are much more than a best friend to me Hann, you are my sister or my parallel being. As I dreamt of you today, I knew I was dreaming but at the same time it seemed so real, I tried to keep the conversation we were having going for as long as I could but you still left at the end. I miss you so much Hannah. I will never stop missing you, but I will continue living vivaciously for you because I know that is what you would do and that is what you would want.

I love you. Shwing.

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